Graduation - Act against arrogance and laziness

I never thought the day will come, but it came anyway
I thought my journey has ended, but yet it just begun

25 Juni 2012 has become a new starting point of my life. Finally on this date I went through my graduation ceremony. 

I remember on September 2004, when I first enter university. I imagined it would be amazing, to study, to be adult (finally) and to graduate. Normally it'll take 4-5 years to finish Bachelor degree, and I was confident that I can finish in 4 years. I thought it's confidence, never realize it's my number one enemy - arrogance. 

I went through each course with outstanding grades, and so over-proud of my abilities that I can perform better than most other students. I took unusual final assignment topic, made it sound interesting and sophisticated. I was so arrogant and cocky to myself that I forgot to rely on God. I forgot that I have weaknesses too. I keep dragging and delaying this assignment, often with multiple reasons which sounded reasonable to people, not realizing that I have given up to my other enemy - laziness. I was too lazy to work things out that I blindly wished that God will make it all finish on one sweep on His Hand. I kept on praying to God, asked for miracles so I can finally graduate. But inside my heart I know, God has given more than enough to help me graduate. The main problem is I don't want to do my part. 

That changed on early this June. God had helped me to realize that I'm arrogant and I'm lazy. And that caused me more than enough problems. That prevented me from being good when I actually able to be great. He gave amazing blow on my life. Make me see through my future, how it will be if I continue being my lazy-selfish-cocky-self, how much more I'll lose each day. Isn't it amazingly hurt to see yourself in such a bad shape and realize that your well-maintained personality is truthfully nothing but a big fat lie? It was hurt as hell and I was scared. So scared that I thought it might be better to just entirely given up and live life as it was. But God will never allow me to do that. 

On one special night, he reminded me on one thing, He is God with an amazing plan on my life. He will not fail me, even when I failed Him for too many times. T___T

As soon as i took my first step, I see miracles everyday. How is it possible to finish up 4 years delayed work in just few days? It's possible and it has happened!!! I was able to finish the assignment, although not as good as I hope it would be, and able to attend the final test, and received an A for it! And finally I can give one happiness for my mother, for her to finally see me graduate after a long 8 years waiting.

How great is Our God!! The One that changes impossibility to reality.